Disclaimer: I am a very optimistic person in general but this blog that I am writing is on one such day when I am feeling very low and hopeless which is normal for I am a human.
We hear that after so many births and rebirths we get to live the life as a human. It is a blessing. Live it well. Love it. Make it worth living and all that full of hopes and inspiring phrases. But sometimes I think that what is the use of being human? We are entangled in a vicious circle of emotions, feelings, thoughts, good and bad deeds, fear and what not. All parents celebrate the birth of their new born labeling him/her as bundle of joy and what not. But that innocent baby remains unaware of what comes next. He/She has to get accustomed to so many rules, regulations, customs, laws of this world whether he likes it or not. As we grow up we have to fight even with ourselves at times when we have to make choice between our ethics and the practicality. This world is full of fellow humans who just want to use you. Even you act like them at times. Emotions have no place anywhere. We are just running some race. Life forces us to run that race. It is so difficult to trust anyone. It hurts really badly when trust is broken. But one just can’t do everything on his own. How easy is it to remain sane and normal during bad times? Patience also has some limit. All hopes start looking false. How to get rid of this feeling?
But as the day ends, and I realize that world is not that bad place to be and that being human is actually a bliss, all such thoughts disappear. I start realizing that may be I over-reacted, or that time was not in my favor. It is not necessary that all good things are meant to happen only with me. Being practical is easy but a bit difficult when it is about being practical with myself. I need to remind myself time and again what Gita says:
कर्मण्येवाधिकारस्ते मा फलेषु कदाचन।
मा कर्मफलहेतुर्भूर्मा ते सङ्गोऽस्त्वकर्मणि॥
This makes sense. I can only perform my duties with full dedication as only this part is in my control. The outcome, its result is surely not in my control. Thus getting tensed about it well in advance will be lethal for me as well as people who genuinely care about me.
Sometimes expected fails to happen and something unexpected which is better than expected happens. Well, that’s life. 🙂
Har Har Mahadev.